I’m determined to not stay in the funk that’s got me. I’m working on things that I have been putting off. Reading books that I put down, writing things that I’ve been procrastinating on, and generally just trying to force myself out of the place that I put myself.
I have no illusions, it’s not going to be easy. But maybe it will help me move forward, even if it’s just a little bit. This is why I went to the movies yesterday. I don’t do that very often. It’s expensive and a long drive. I needed the change of scenery though. I needed a boost. The recent success at helping someone redo their blog helped. I just need to keep that going.
Sitting out here in the wasteland takes the enthusiasm out of me very quickly. I go to the conventions and meet all the creative people or hangout with talented friends and it revs me up to be creative. Then I come home and the spark seems to vanish. Yes, there are triggers. Things are not always supportive here. But I’ve got to work through that if I’m going to be productive and successful.
I had a discussion with someone today about how someone close to me is unhappy with their situation (not me for a change). I kept thinking “This person has done nothing to change things.” As I went through my judgmental moment I thought, “Neither have I. So I can really have an opinion on somebody else’s problems.” I try to not be a jerk and judge people, not always a successful at it. But it did sort of make me kick my own ass. I hope it makes a difference.