Trying and Failing
Doing my best to keep my life together. I’m still here, so I guess that counts as something. But I’m not happy, and that makes me feel like a failure. Connections that I thought I had made have fallen apart. I’m not smart enough or rich enough I guess. That hurts so much. I may […]
Good and bad
It’s been a rough few weeks. Seems like holidays are always rough when dealing with depression and anxiety. The thing is, I’m doing better than usual. A friend has been helping me through the days. I am thankful for the people who have given me a helping hand. I know that I’d be in a […]
Writing
I’ve tried to write on a regular basis lately. A friend mentioned how difficult that can be when you’re depressed. I tend to agree, although I’ve read books and articles that recommend channeling your feelings into your writing. I find that to be a sound idea that is much harder to do than it sounds. […]
Ugh…
Sad tonight. Feeling worthless. Just putting this here because its what I feel right now.
Low
My mind and emotions are betraying me tonight. Sinking pretty low.
Being Thankful
I’m going through a lot of emotions lately. Not all of them happy or fun. As I keep trying to put my life back together, sometimes unsuccessfully. Jobs are hard to find, I live in an area outside of the civilized world. Much of the time I am isolated, alone, and lonely. I do my […]
Not sure what to title this post. I haven’t written much of anything worthwhile lately. My heart just hasn’t been in it. I’ve felt lonely and let down. As a result my productivity has sucked. I’m resigned to this just being how it is right now. I’m not sure how to fix things that are […]
Mixed Bag
The last few weeks have been a mash of bullshit, emotions, and attempts at writing. I’m not feeling great, but I think it’s more emotional and mental than physical. I’m 100% certain that the majority of people don’t understand that depression and anxiety can cause a physical reaction. It’s like feeling sick all the time. […]
Sunday Before San Diego
Feeling pretty awful today. It hasn’t been a great weekend and my anxiety is in full swing. Resting today, trying to get ready for 4 days in San Diego. Not sure how I’ll feel, but hoping it will be better than this weekend. Stressing over pretty much everything right now. Job hunting being the biggest […]
Not procrastinating
Just very uninterested in everything today. I need motivation but have none. I really hate when I feel like this. It’s wasted time, but it’s an emotional thing to the best I can figure. I’m 99% sure it’s loneliness and isolation that is doing it to me. Not much I can do about that I […]