Anxiety
I try to keep busy and look for work every day. Most days I apply for one or two jobs. The waiting is what gets to me and sends my anxiety level through the roof. I exercise and read to keep my mind off of my troubles. Some days I’m more successful than others. I […]
Trying and Failing
Doing my best to keep my life together. I’m still here, so I guess that counts as something. But I’m not happy, and that makes me feel like a failure. Connections that I thought I had made have fallen apart. I’m not smart enough or rich enough I guess. That hurts so much. I may […]
Trying and Failing
Doing my best to keep my life together. I’m still here, so I guess that counts as something. But I’m not happy, and that makes me feel like a failure. Connections that I thought I had made have fallen apart. I’m not smart enough or rich enough I guess. That hurts so much. I may […]
Hello old friend…
Self-doubt…
Being Thankful
I’m going through a lot of emotions lately. Not all of them happy or fun. As I keep trying to put my life back together, sometimes unsuccessfully. Jobs are hard to find, I live in an area outside of the civilized world. Much of the time I am isolated, alone, and lonely. I do my […]
Brain
I need one. Had an idea for another post but failed to write it down and it’s gone from my brain. *sigh*
Depression…
Sucks! That is all.
Not sure what to title this post. I haven’t written much of anything worthwhile lately. My heart just hasn’t been in it. I’ve felt lonely and let down. As a result my productivity has sucked. I’m resigned to this just being how it is right now. I’m not sure how to fix things that are […]
Mixed Bag
The last few weeks have been a mash of bullshit, emotions, and attempts at writing. I’m not feeling great, but I think it’s more emotional and mental than physical. I’m 100% certain that the majority of people don’t understand that depression and anxiety can cause a physical reaction. It’s like feeling sick all the time. […]
Sunday Before San Diego
Feeling pretty awful today. It hasn’t been a great weekend and my anxiety is in full swing. Resting today, trying to get ready for 4 days in San Diego. Not sure how I’ll feel, but hoping it will be better than this weekend. Stressing over pretty much everything right now. Job hunting being the biggest […]
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